There has been so much going on in your stratosphere lately that you've barely had a second to breathe, let alone take full stock of everything in your life. We've all sort of been pushed through a trajectory of tying up loose ends FROM THE PAST for the first half of this year. Any trauma, baggage, people, places or things in your life representing an old version of yourself has sort of... forcibly been removed. But you know - also very lovingly plucked out of your life by the root by Spirit, your Ancestors and the Powers that Be.
You're essentially evolving into one of your ultimate Poke-forms this year. I hope I got that reference right. I'm a nerd, and I am only just a baby in the Pokémon franchise. Or if Transformers are your thing, you're about to transform in a big way. All cool, shiny, impressive as all heck - Mech style.
Given that such huge evolution is coming for you in the second half of this year, it's sort of time to be switching gears from conscious thought and expression to subconscious thought and owning of self. Even through stillness or time alone.
Some of the examples of evolution I used were very flashy. This Babe, not so much. I'm sorry we can't all be cool Pokémon or Transformers. Some day.
But for now the end result honestly is so much more cooler. You're becoming a version of you that you've only really dreamt of for years. While living as a now dead version of you that felt perhaps uncomfortable, or anxiety-inducing, or even frustrating. We've all been living in versions of having one foot caught up in who we wish to become with one foot stuck in who we used to be.
Babes. That's just 2021 in a nutshell. 2 + 0 + 2 + 1 = 5. The number 5 in numerology typically signifies change. There will be so much change for you this year, it's truly incredible. And it will seem as if it never stops. There will be the changes you make for yourself. Opening yourself to a new way of living. And new parts of yourself. And then there will be the changes you perhaps have not asked for, nor do you want. But the Universe & Spirit knows you are most in need of these very things.
This week's read is a micro-level extension of these macro-level vibes for 2021. Change be it, Babe. So every week of this year will present a variance of change in your life. Be it perceived as positive change, negative change, or simply... change.
That being said, this week the Universe & Spirit are calling you to delve a bit deeper into the parts of your mind where your true hopes and dreams lie. Those things you're far too afraid to want for yourself. We all have them. A list of sorts. The things we want to create or obtain for ourselves but perhaps we've faced nothing but hurdles, road blocks, and trauma along the way of achieving those very things. There's a reason why Spirit is so keen on your unearthing these hidden wisdoms within yourself this week...
Because Babe. You get to build your Cosmic Wishlist this year.
What do you want???
Not that first thought that poked through. That's likely what you're consciously focused on and (hopefully) working toward in your life in positive ways.
Instead it's time to focus in on the things you want that you only really allow your mind to naturally drift to when you're about to fall asleep at night. Or upon waking in the morning. Or while meditating. Or while running. Or while singing. Or while doing anything so very immersive for your mind, heart and soul that these subconscious dreams can rise within you.
What are the things you want in those moments?
Yes, you're going to be afraid.
And yes, once you have it you may not even feel fully satisfied. For reasons. Expectation vs Baggage vs Perspective vs one million other teeny tiny things.
This week Spirit is calling you to form that list. Allow those thoughts to rise within you. Allow yourself to dream just a little bit more than usual. And then allow yourself to transition those dreams into conscious plans. That last one will be very hard and won't happen this week. But this week will be setting the foundation for you to turn subconscious dreams into conscious plans. It will happen.
The absolute best thing you can do for yourself this week is trust in your own thoughts, desires and judgments. Trust in your past experience. Trust in your current hustle and flow. Trust in yourself. And the rest will sift through to the surface as it should.
Also - ENGAGE, ENGAGE, ENGAGE.
In practices that allow you to enter that 'tween space of the conscious vs subconscious mind. Meditate, run, dance, do the dishes, paint, make music, reach out to other like minds (especially in HEALTHY spiritual communities). And if reaching out is far too hard... maybe start thinking about some people you've lost touch with that add more sunshine to your life. And start to wrap your mind around incorporating them back into the mix of your day to day.
Now would also be the time to start up a new vision board. Either physically, digitally, or in your very own mind palace (come through Sherlock). Start to also visualize these things that you want for yourself.
This is about to be a bit of a roller-coaster of a week - self work wise. But in terms of life and positive growth / changes? You're about to make the most stellar of progress. Just take it slow Babe. And please be patient with yourself.
Deck: The Lioness Oracle by Alejandra Luisa León